The Same Thing We Do Every Night, Pinky…
Here I am, thinking.
What I am thinking is that I now have only one short story circulating. Mark Twain's Daughter came home yesterday, and true to my word, I sent it out to Writers of the Future. Well, I wrote the nice people at WotF with a question, and they were so solicitous and helpful I felt like I really should send them something.
When I came back from Viable Paradise in 2009, I was given the gift of confidence. I have been very careful to prune that confidence so it doesn't turn into overconfidence. (Confidence gone to seed is pretty ugly and can smell like yesterday's marijuana.) At the time I received a real gift from many of my fellow VPers. Lots of them suggested that what I had taken to the workshop was unique, and that it might go somewhere. I felt renewed in my resolve to do the kind of thing I do. Not so commercial, me, but I know what I do.
Flash forward to now. Here I am in the middle of the Klarion third book rewrite. My initial readers tell me it's working, but I feel like I'm floundering. The only thing for it right now is to keep writing and not let the editor turn on until I at least have a first draft. This is hard, but I am trying.
At the same time, this is taking me a long time. I am not competing with anyone but myself, but I feel strange that I'm doing only this isolated thing. I have no avatars in the world right now but one. And I know this can't be the best way to meet editors, make connections, and all that jazz. It seems counter-intuitive to that end.
I find myself pulled in several directions. I have a lot of ideas of things I'd like to try, and finite time to try them in. I'm trying to focus myself on one project right now, but I feel other projects slipping away from me.
It hasn't been all morass this last year. What I feel I have done this year is gotten better at writing short stories. I have one story coming out in November, and one I wrote last year coming sometime. And I have expanded my sense of belonging and participation in the writing community. That's something.
Nevertheless, I feel that I must do a bit more. I work best with goals and an action plan. Cue the action plan.
Mirrored from Writer Tamago.