The Rest of the Story

...I wish that heading were about a manuscript or an agent. However, this is the follow up to my health information. All of the blood tests show me to be healthy, which is a blessing. My thyroid is fine, so we have decided on the verdict of situational depression.

I'm not surprised I didn't see this coming at some point in my life. My background is fraught with abusive episodes, and that would be enough, but there is also a genetic predisposition to depression. My mother's depression was the monolith of a miserable childhood. As I told the doctor about her dark moods, she nodded as she worked out a prescription for Wellbutrin. As much as we try, we are our parents children, especially in regard to health.

Unlike my own mother, I have the option of taking action. I'll be taking Wellbutrin for a month. The doctor suggests that cutting ties recently with my family has been the cause for this, and once she heard that, she suggested that I go back to counseling. I've been in and out of counseling as needed for a long time, and if nothing else, it will give me a chance to see one of the great heroes of my life, David, who has worked with me through workaholicism and stress reduction. Now, we have to work through familial divorce and probably some guilt.

Wellbutrin will also help with the really messed up dreams I've been having on and off since Christmas, the ones where people from my past life interact with people from my present life, and are never satisfied. Some how, it's always my fault. I'd love to see those go away.

The other part of the plan is to exercise a lot. Apparently, that's really good for depression too, and so I'll see what I can do about getting some physical time in morning and night.

In a month, we'll see how I'm doing, see if I've gotten the kick start I need.

And that's where we're at. I just wanted to keep the curious up to date.

Gotta go. We have a visitation for Bryon's uncle to drive to tonight.

Catherine

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